Tuesday, May 13, 2014

day two of the water fast

Today was successful,but at the same time it wasn't. I water fasted all day but when i got home from school i ate like 4 pieces of those big pepperoni slices you put on sandwiches. I also had a glass of Hawaiian punch and one glass of milk. It wasn't that bad of a slip up i'll just work it off in a few minutes when i work out, but still i want to go a full day with nothing but water. There's temptations to eat every where i look. But i have to keep reminding myself 
"Do i want to be fat, do i want people to always be smaller than me, do i want to hide under my clothes forever?"
And the answer to all of those is now. Sometimes looking at thinspo pictures on tumblr just isn't going to cut when it comes to sticking to a diet. I need real life motivations, something that's now or never lose it or don't kind of thing. So i feel better you know that feeling when you get to day two and you start to feel a little different even though there's no visible change.I'm right there at the moment and even though i can't see change i still feel good, like on this high of motivation to get where i really want to be. I really want to be like 107-110 lbs. by the time school start after summer break. I want to wear whatever i want, and i want to be me just me not someone stuck inside a body suit screaming to get out.

Monday, May 12, 2014

26 day water fast!

I'm starting a 26 day water fast, well technically I already started.My first day was May 12. I want to go all the way up to June 6th. I think I might want to go past that to the last day of school but i'm just trying to lose weight for my school formal dance. I want to be comfortable with my body at my dance, and I just feel trapped inside my body. I know this isn't me and I don't usually weigh this much. So if anyone wants to do this with me comment or message me or something. I'm excited. Also i'm going to start working out a bunch every night before I go to bed and every morning when i wake up. I'm talking until i just can't do go on kind of working out. I think that if i fast and workout like crazy while i'm on my fast then it will help me to lose more weight than i would just regular fasting and working out every other day. But that won't be the end i really want to get down to my goal weight and look how i want to look by the time i go back to school after summer break. this is how i really want to look.

And this would be great to aha 

So anyways tomorrow will be day two of the fast and i can't wait i just hope i get what i want out of this by the time i need it.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

Skinny is the misssion

So i have been liquid fasting for two days now allowing myself to eat some but very little like a couple olives or a piece of cheese or a hand full of lightly salted chips. I'm also going to workout before i go to bed tonight hardcore. I'm done messing around i hate my body ad i hate myself for letting it get this far out of control. I'm literally gross i have stretch marks and i know i'm not even fat just chubby barley but still it's obese in my opinion. My goal weigh it 110-117 if i can get there i'll be so happy. I'm going to try doing the 14 day water fast. Doctors say it's okay if you don't do it often so i'm gonna do that then i'm gonna start the abc diet with and all vegetarian diet. Message me/ email me if you want to join in and be my proana buddy!!(: i'll be posting daily or every other day since testing is coming up but still message me/ email me i would love a pro ana buddy !!